Something non-consensual happenened several times between myself and an older person close to me when I was a child. I am uncertain how best to handle this. I have denied it to myself for a long time, but it continues to bother me. To make things more complicated, I actually am emotionally- platonically- attached to the person to whom these memories are attached.
And he is not the only one who was inconsiderate of my childhood. There is a tremendous tear in me between wanting to yell at them and also feeling for them. I don’t know how to be.