So I lied to my boyfriend about 5 months ago when I quit my job. I told him I got fired and the reason why I lied was because I was afraid of him leaving me because it was right around the time when he and I were working things out again. So obviously, I didn’t want to ruin that. About a week ago I finally cracked and told him the truth because he is possibly going to spend the day at the place I used to work. Kalahari. I didn’t want him to find out from someone else so I just told him myself.
We are still together and at first he was upset but I explained myself and he does completely understand but he is just hurt that i even lied to him which is very understandable. He doesn’t look at me any differently, he doesn’t love me any less, and I still have his trust as long as I never lie to him again, regardless of the situation.
Well things are still in the air and they don’t know if they are going but I’m afraid of them going because my friend works there and she’s the one that got me the job. I’m just afraid something is going to be brought up. It’s all just a big mess, I can’t sit here and explain it all, it’ll take a while. Josh said he wont say anything and I sent my friend a text asking her please to not bring it up and she said “I wasn’t going to” so I said okay.
I trust in God and I believe he gave me this life and this family because this is where I belong and I don’t believe anything will happen if he goes to Kalahari but in the back of my head I can’t help but to be afraid. I also can’t look in the mirror without thinking I"m the biggest bitch in the world and I pray every night that if he goes nothing gets brought up. I wasn’t completely honest with him in telling him the truth. I told him I called my boss and talked to her and I didn’t.
My supervisor told me that I had accumulated too many points and things weren’t looking good so I acted on impulse and quit before they could fire me, my friend just told me my supervisor lied to me. I had no points at all from any of the times I called off and I did tell Josh about that and he agrees with me and my friend that I should have just waited and talked to my boss face to face instead of taking my supervisors words because my supervisor hated me from the start.
Does it seem like everything should be fine?
Am I a bitch for all of this? I just feel like a horrible person..