Ok, here’s a new one for you. For the second night in the last five nights I’ve woken to my OH shaking me awake because I’ve been screaming. I have nightmares often (if not every night then every other night) and this doesnt feel quite the same. I am literally terrified when I wake up, I dont recognise Fred as I’m waking and I’ll be terrfied of everything, everyone and every sound from that point on for ages. Somehow I managed to lie in the dark and get back to sleep after maybe ten minutes of panicking the first time, this time I’ve been awake for maybe forty mintues now, literally too scared to do anything else but sob and squeal and gasp at every movement my partner makes and every creek of the door.
When I first woke up I was convinced there was something evil in the room which was going to either come and get me, rip Fred away or possess him to attack me. Most un-characteristic. Mostly stuff like this I can control to a degree, I rationalize it but that’s gone out of the window. I feel much better now, but I’m still too scared to turn off the light, lay down and sleep. I’m too scared to go downstairs and be on my own too so I’m screwed really.
I was wondering if anyone had had a similar experience, or knows of one for some advice here. I’ll be seeing the cognitive behavioural woman again on Friday but I was hoping for some reassurance before then!