I’m having a hard time dealing with my insecurities. My fiancé has instagram and I know he looks and follows women on there that are models and pornographic models. I try to not get jealous and hurt. I have talked to him and asked him to stop but he doesn’t. Now I feel like I’m not good enough or he’s not attracted to me. I try to seduce him and he turns me down saying he’s in to much pain. I don’t want to be touched by him because of how I feel or put in any more effort in putting on make up or a sexy outfit because I feel it’ll all be worthless. He touches me and I have a hard time with it because I feel betrayed but I don’t want to tell him because we’v Already talked about it
There are other threads on the forum mentioning this subject so perhaps look there, but from what you write I feel there may be deeper issues with your relationship. Perhaps you need to sit down and list your worries to yourself. Is your inner insecurity more than just about women on instagram? It sounds like you are moving apart. A relationship needs to be based on trust and understanding, which at present does not seem to be there. It is hard not to get emotional, but you need to understand each other, without coming to a standoff.
I’d certainly read the links SpinningJen has posted. There is loads of advice on there.
I do think you’ve got every right to your feelings: if your boyfriend were openly looking at women on Instagram then that is extremely disrespectful. It isn’t a crime for a man to look at models, and women in general, but rubbing it on their partner’s face is just not on. I’d have serious words.